Something always brings me back to you.

..It never takes too long.


You've changed. I did, too. But the love that I feel for you didn't. It's still the same. I know I can't blame you. It's prolly my fault because I consumed all your patience and understanding and what have you. But that change is making me feel that you love me less. I know you'll disagree because you always tell me that you love me more than ever. But you're not as patient as before. You're not as understanding. I just miss that. And I'm sorry but I think that's the main reason why I always feel down and depressed.

I gave up on you so many times and for that I'm so sorry. I'm really weak and I know you are, too but you're trying to be strong because you don't want to lose me. I don't want to lose you, too. I tried to move on and leave everything behind. I tried to walk away from you to save myself from the pain but I always end up coming back to where I belong-- to you. I'm not brave enough to live my life without you. I know I can and you can live without me, too but I know things will be different and not as happy a before.

I gave you everything that I could give you and I'm still willing to give what I got left for this relationship to work. I fought for you and I'm still fighting. My parents didn't approve of this. They didn't want me to talk to you because of what happened. But you're the one who makes me happy and they don't have any choice but to support me because they want to see me smiling and they want to hear me laugh. You make me happy. And I need you.

You know that I'm sick. And I'm not scared of death. Sometimes I even want to kill myself before my time because I want to end my suffering. And I think God gave you to help me make it through. To help me be strong. To keep me alive. To keep my faith.. And you're doing a great job, honey.

I just.. I just hope that no matter what.. I don't know. Please, don't leave me. I know I tried to leave you, I tried to give up on you so many times but.. please... Don't leave me. 

I don't know what to do without you. And God knows how much I love you.

Wishlist#1

I want this so bad.

I don't like accessories but I want this one :'(( And I want it so bad. I swear, I'm never gonna take it off.

Ugh

I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling right now. I feel down, lonely, miserable.. I feel like anytime soon, I might give up. I might just celebrate the new year alone. Get a new life. Forget everything.

I know I can't live without him. But I don't want all of my days to be like this. I'm still hoping for a miracle. Before it's too late.